from now on ....

hi,

i’ve been meaning to post for so long. i want tell more from what i normally told you here.  you see, i am always a story teller person; i started a diary since i was merely 10 years old! i used to blog extensively for 5 years. i love to write down what has happened in my life. love even more for able to read it later.

as you see, i’ve changed the blog layout a little bit. i like the clean but cheerful layout. hope it will encourage me to write again. not just scrapbooking, but my story of life as i used to write before.

so i am, as of now, is still a mummy. of four kids. of a husband. of a rented house in dubai. of a lifesaver maid. full stop. the  sideline will be …. let’s see ….. paper, pattern, color, food, fabric, book, texture, design …. and a tiny bit of architecture … they are that diverse because I simply couldn’t stop at one.

i love scrapbooking, but feel that it is not enough for me to stop there … also i am not good enough at scrapbooking, i love sewing, but again, the patience is not enough for me to grab it as a whole …. so does other thing …. either i am not good enough, do not possess enough patience, or even other reasons. the main thing is simply, my time is not enough. much to love, but little time to do. i am also an architect. i work full time as an architect. i use to love architecture. all the pattern, color, texture, etc, are deriving from this. but again, many reasons, good or bad, happy or sad, that made not loving it so much now. but that’s the story for another day. 

i recently celebrated my 40^th b’day. 

*sigh*

it was scary and strange 

i woke up on the morning of my birthday and feel nothing. and that had made me think. i posted this on my instagram.

but later, slowly, i feel different. i know very well, that age is just age, date is just date …. doesn’t really matter. but man, i am indeed feels the different. 

the week following my birthday is supposed to be my preparation week  for our paris trip. i had a long list of things to buy, or to get, to prepare.  and all these didn’t overwhelmed me like before. i did not go to shop and frantically bought everything that i think will be necessary, i actually went to explore!!. like the winter jacket, the bigs don’t have it, but the smaller one does. it’s the hand me down from their big bros. i found several place that sell good and suitable jacket for the big ones, ali and harris, i didn't simply take it but i went from shop to shop till i found the most practical and best in value. that is something for me!!! . i don’t really like to shop, i only shop if i need something, and bought the first one that i found and like. no comparing, no exploring. 

and like a typical asian, i like to bring food. like rendang. not so much on the halal issue, i know like other metropolitan, Paris has lots and lots of halal food. but it is more on the cost issue. you know how much it cost to feed this army of mine ?!?!?! … no need to mention here, but it is a lot. so i plan to bring rendang daging, rendang ayam and kering kentang and others  from dubai. my maid only knows how to cook the kering kentang and i had to prepare the rest. but i was a bit unwell that week so only managed to cook the rendang ayam. somehow it didn’t freak me out, i don’t push myself sick, overworked and all to cook, but simply think that i had to make do with this. the old me will go berserk, will try to do whatever to get all the things in the list ticked. lots of things didn’t get to accomplish in the list, i was tired that week, and that moment i somehow managed to look in the list and decided that whatever not important will be left unticked. and true enough, we managed just fine at Paris. 

and let me tell you, that experience is just a start. i am still not a good matured well groomed forty yeards old woman, i think. but i am making progress. and one of that is this blog. i is been redesigned few weeks ago, at least i managed to arrange that. and i am having this new post!. yeay!!!

i am still ten kilos (with lil bit more) overweight, no progress as i have not plan anything  so far. but i will think of something. i not a diet or exercise plan then it will be just a good reason why i need to stay fat. hehehehe … lets see … 

so that is the direction of this blog from now on …. just random, as the title says, just life at it is ….. cheers!